Sunday, 29 May 2011

Mixed Emotions.

It's hard to know how to feel with the position we are in... one side of the coin our home feels somewhat empty at night... there is a room 10 feet from us that is far too quiet and vacant. There is a baby boy who has yet to see the outside of a hospital (except for his helicopter ride above the city). There's a pain that surfaces at the most inconvenient times... but there's another side....
A side that has seen a love and compassion from so many people around the world - total strangers who, under the family of God have come together to lift our little boy up for healing.
I don't know why this happens... I don't know why we are going through this or why so many people in the world have felt the sting of losing their child - no parent should have to do that.

Yesterday was Angela's birthday... A birthday that was spent with her little boy. Her parents surprised her by showing up and having cake and presents waiting for her in the waiting room.... and as she walked out and as her parents began to sing 'Happy B-day', she couldn't help but overhear a mother on the phone saying 'You better come down to say goodbye'. A mother that could hardly contain the emotion that was taking over. Ten minutes later she heard someone run into the hall and break down sobbing.

I don't know if I can handle that. My prayer from the beginning has been in the hope of the testimony that Bronson would have to live out his days restored and healed. I refuse to believe anything less for him. I refuse to let the urgency of the situation overshadow the faith I have in a healing God... a loving God - but I am not calling the shots.

Tonight I am reminded of Job. A man who had everything - lost it all - and still honoured and loved the Lord his God. There are things that have happened throughout our journey already that has shown me how God is using our situation to reach people around the world... things that I plan to write about once this is all over... like how complete strangers heard about our journey, and along with church family, had a few lemonade stands that said "All Proceeds Go To Bronson Anthony - A baby at SickKids - an act of kindness that we were incredibly blessed through... Where a little boy gave his allowance to 'help Bronson'.

These are the moments that take our breath away... moments that show us there is more than just this earthly existence - we are living in a moment like that. A moment that during the good times and the bad, I will bless the name of the Lord.
Sometimes you feel like you're holding the short end of the stick... and you may have questions - but bring your questions to the One that made all that we know. Life has thrown us a curve ball... but I still choose to say that we are blessed.
Christianity, if false, is of no importance, and if true, of infinite importance. The only thing it cannot be is moderately important. - CS Lewis. 

1 comment:

  1. It is so encouraging to hear that so many people are praying for Bronson...but there are no strangers in the body of Christ. Bronson will be amazed when he's older and learns how many hearts his journey touched.